Tuesday, 18 November 2014

4 months

This month has been crazy! Caleb has grown more in the past month then any month yet! He’s gotten so smart & funny! His personality is coming out more and more and it has been so sweet to see! Right when I start to think he’s so big though, he’ll start sucking on my arm or hand and he’s right back to my tiny baby! This has also been an incredibly exhausting month for Joshua and me. We have finally moved into our new home! We have each lost 5 lbs between cutting most sugar out and the busyness of our move! Ha! Whatever works!  It’s been a couple week process, but today we spent 3.5 hours cleaning the old house and are officially done! Yee haw! 

The new home is so very nice! (Shout out to my father in law for helping to build it!! ) Caleb has a beautiful nursery! I was beyond excited for his nursery and it is coming together super well. I will post pictures when I feel more settled! There is a really nice basement, that will be completely finished next Summer when the teams come up from down south.  I look forward to using that for church get togethers! The living room is super great and could probably hold 50 people! We have fit 25 in our last, much smaller living room, so this is wonderful for hosting which we so love to do! The Lord has been teaching me a lot about Godly Hospitality, the kind where it doesn’t have to be pinterest perfect. My heart just needs to be open and welcoming and full of love for our guests. I am very much a Martha who really likes things to be perfect for my guests…the Lord is teaching me what He wants my heart to look like. 1 Peter 3:3-4 says, “Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— 4 but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious.” A beautiful house won’t be warm and welcoming if I don’t have a beautiful heart to go in it. (sidenote: I just thought about Martha from the bible being like Martha Stewart…Ha!! Have people made that connection? WHOA. Bible nerd + housemaker nerd…moving on…)

I’ve definitely missed family this month during the move. I would have done anything to have one of Caleb’s aunts or grandmas sit and play with him while I got stuff done in the house. I have definitely had to be carried by the Lord this month as it has presented the most challenging mommy moments yet. Praying for patience is both necessary and terrifying. Every time I pray for more I get inundated with situations that require LOTS of patience, like a baby screaming, a kitchen full of boxes and the many other pulls of life in ministry. 

I have really tried to do more than survive these weeks. I have very high expectations and hopes as a mom. I want my children to think of me as a patient and gentle mommy. I want them to see Christ in me. I want to be an example of joy and patience and gentleness and love. I can’t believe how much that has already been tried with a little 4 month old, and I can’t imagine how much more when that little cute mouth starts speaking. I pray for Caleb so often, and pray that I can be the best mommy to him that I can possibly be. I know I won’t be perfect, but I pray the Lord will work everything out even through my imperfections. 

I recently told my mom that if I could describe my childhood in 1 word it would be ‘Magical’. Really and truly my childhood was perfection, except it probably wasn’t. I know my parents made mistakes and weren’t perfect. By God’s grace though, when I think of my childhood all I remember are the great and beautiful things. I pray that same thing for my children. That even though I will inevitably mess up, that He would cover that with His sweet grace and allow Caleb to see the good.  

I am so very honored to be called here to Moose Factory to serve. It really is a joy. I feel so honored to be Caleb’s mom too. Life can be hard, but I am grateful to be called to what I am called to as a mother and Pastor’s wife & I’m thankful for weeks like I’ve had that have just encouraged my faith as I’ve seen the Lord work mightily! He is a sweet and great Lord!

Now on to my little chunker:

Caleb Joshua :

Weight:  17 lbs

Height: 25.5 inches

Doctor appointment:  He gets his 4 month “needles” (that’s what they call them here…if you call them shots they’ll laugh at you..just fyi) in the next couple weeks!

Nicknames:  Chubs, Chubster, Chub-Chub, chubby, chunker ( poor baby…recurring theme!!! His thighs & FAT wrists just don’t help his case!!) baby boy, big boy, his mama calls him by his full name often…Caleb Joshua!

Eating: LOTS. I realized I should start reading up on the next stage with real food. I know he’s not ready yet, but I have noticed him being hungry a lot, so milk may not be cutting it for long! Also, mostly for my records (I’m printing these all out for my memory, or lack of!), I have something called D-MER…It’s Dysphoric Milk Ejection Reflux. There were so many times when I told Josh and my friend Brittany that I felt very depressed when I was nursing Caleb. It started happening so regularly (like every time I nurse) that Britt and I decided to google it…and what do you know…it’s a real thing, very real to me! Apparently it’s pretty rare, but when some women’s milk lets down their hormones go crazy (layman’s terms!) and feelings of depression, anxiety, hopelessness etc. flood hard for a couple minutes! It can be pretty intense, and make for one emotional mama. Since Caleb eats often, I experience it often, but we shall march on! I've been reading up on ways to possibly help it.

Sleeping:  Caleb is still a spectacular night sleeper. He usually goes to bed at 10 PM and wakes up around 8:30 -  9:00 AM!  He naps usually every 2 hours for about 30 minutes, except his 2nd nap of the day has been about an hour for the last few days! He’s becoming more and more comfortable in his crib, he’ll still cry and whine when we put him down, but it usually lasts no more than 10 minutes and then he’s out. I’d say that half the time he goes to sleep by himself, the other half nursing. I’m okay with this for now!

Diapers: Still in disposable...I thought I was almost out, then we hit the jackpot while packing up our house. Once we get settled I will start the washing the cloth diaper process. Thankfully my friend Britt did cloth diapers so I have someone to go to for any questions.

Clothing: He can wear some of his 3 month stuff. He is too tall and his feet are too big for sleepers in 3 month size (footy pajamas). I’ve been putting him in a lot of his 6 month stuff…it fits a little big, but is pretty good! He has such adorable clothes thanks to many of you reading this!

Social: Depends on the day. I’d say overall Caleb is a stage 5 mommy clinger. He loves his daddy too!  At first I was all “how cute and adorable” and now I’m all…”somebody take him!! Oh wait…you can’t!!”  I’m half joking…I still do find it quite endearing that he loves me so much. I know that nursing creates a very special bond between mommy and baby that often causes the babies to want to be near their mama's all the time. It’s also a different situation living in Moose Factory because there just aren’t many places to go. We went to dinner at a friend’s house on Saturday and it was a new place for Caleb. He already felt uncomfortable being in a new place, and when the woman tried to hold him he cried. He does really well at church, so I’m confident in time he’ll do better and better. Again, I’m ok with this. I’m not really worried about much. He’s loved and provided for. I trust that God will have Caleb grow up into the man that He wants him to be! Why worry?!?! Hakuna Matata!!

New this month:  Holy moly!! He has grown leaps and bounds this month! Caleb turns over from his back to his belly like a pro. If I put him down on his back within 5 seconds he’s over on his belly! I put him in his Jolly Jumper and he LOVES it. He goes nuts!! It’s such a joy to watch him be so joyful! He’s gone in his exersaucer the past few days. He laughs & scrunches up when I tickle his neck. It’s adorable!! He grabs things. He has found his hands and feet. Sometimes he’ll just hold his hands over his head and stare at them! It’s hilarious. Most recently he has bent over and sucked on his feet!!! He’s so flexible! It is hilarious to watch! This month was his first time in his crib and that’s going pretty well! It was an adjustment but I think he’s learning that he’s safe! I have been putting him in my carrier a lot lately and that has gone pretty well. He mostly just likes to face forward and see everything that I’m doing.  He has 2 teeth poking through on the bottom. That has been painful for my poor baby.

Likes:  Still likes his bath! LOVES his Jolly Jumper.  Being active 99% of the time! (Can you say exhausting for mom?!?!) Smiles so big when people give him attention and talk to him. LOVES being held and walking around the house with me or Josh. He likes when we change his clothes, both putting them on and taking them off… he just smiles so big and gets so excited. I’m pretty pumped about this because I know many babies dislike being changed!

Dislikes: Not being near mom & dad.  Being still. Ha! Teething! <---me too, baby!

Mama: I’m good! The last couple of weeks have been tough. I’ve been exhausted from moving. I’ve been overwhelmed because it’s nearly impossible to get anything done with Caleb.  (I need my mommy and mommy-in law!!!)  The whole DMER thing nearly pushes me over the edge when I’m already feeling defeated. I have been CLINGING to Jesus the past couple of weeks. Josh has been good to let me have alone time with Jesus each day without Caleb. Yesterday was one of my hardest days, but after spending time in the Bible and talking with Jesus I felt worlds better. Can’t imagine being a mama without the Lord to lean on. It’s a tough gig, a very sanctifying one, but an incredible privilege.  I’ve been doing a Bible study called No Other gods by Kelly Minter and it’s been phenomenal. I’ve grown so much over the past couple months doing it and have been super challenged. I would definitely recommend it! I’m still happy, still full of joy, still in love with my baby and his daddy! I have been so grateful being in this new home and seeing how the Lord has provided for us.

Daddy:  Joshua is great…exhausted, but great! This move has been tough with the Chubster. I have to be with Caleb so Josh has done A LOT of the moving part by himself, and I’m doing my best to do the sorting and organizing in the new house. He’s been moving, working and trying to spend time with us. He is putting on a conference this weekend at the Chapel called Biblical Mind Maintenance. There are 4 sessions, one for each chapter of Philippians! We are really looking forward to that! Hopefully Caleb is looking forward to napping during all the sessions so mommy can listen!!!

Fun things we did: Caleb went to his first wedding! He was precious! He was pretty bothered with teething that day, but we all still managed to have a good time! Being in a new house is fun! We are really praying the Lord will use us in our new neighborhood, living on the reserve now, about a 15 second walk from the chapel!
What we're looking forward to:  I’m looking forward to being settled in our home. Looking forward to Caleb’s passport coming in so we can plan a trip to Georgia & Philly. Looking forward to Christmas, hoping we have some visitors from the city of Brotherly Love…no pressure though ;)


 {his cool winter suit!! Thanks Mimi!!!}

 {he was mesmerized with the tigers on his feet!}
 {Caleb knows where the camera is because I can talk to him through it, we always catch him staring!}

 {I don't know why I look like an oompa loompa, but Caleb looks sweet!}

{i know I'm 100% biased, but this is the cutest video ever!}

“Give ear and come to me; hear me, that your soul may live. I will make an everlasting covenant with you, my faithful love promised to David.” Isaiah 55:3