Tuesday, 18 November 2014

4 months

This month has been crazy! Caleb has grown more in the past month then any month yet! He’s gotten so smart & funny! His personality is coming out more and more and it has been so sweet to see! Right when I start to think he’s so big though, he’ll start sucking on my arm or hand and he’s right back to my tiny baby! This has also been an incredibly exhausting month for Joshua and me. We have finally moved into our new home! We have each lost 5 lbs between cutting most sugar out and the busyness of our move! Ha! Whatever works!  It’s been a couple week process, but today we spent 3.5 hours cleaning the old house and are officially done! Yee haw! 

The new home is so very nice! (Shout out to my father in law for helping to build it!! ) Caleb has a beautiful nursery! I was beyond excited for his nursery and it is coming together super well. I will post pictures when I feel more settled! There is a really nice basement, that will be completely finished next Summer when the teams come up from down south.  I look forward to using that for church get togethers! The living room is super great and could probably hold 50 people! We have fit 25 in our last, much smaller living room, so this is wonderful for hosting which we so love to do! The Lord has been teaching me a lot about Godly Hospitality, the kind where it doesn’t have to be pinterest perfect. My heart just needs to be open and welcoming and full of love for our guests. I am very much a Martha who really likes things to be perfect for my guests…the Lord is teaching me what He wants my heart to look like. 1 Peter 3:3-4 says, “Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— 4 but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious.” A beautiful house won’t be warm and welcoming if I don’t have a beautiful heart to go in it. (sidenote: I just thought about Martha from the bible being like Martha Stewart…Ha!! Have people made that connection? WHOA. Bible nerd + housemaker nerd…moving on…)

I’ve definitely missed family this month during the move. I would have done anything to have one of Caleb’s aunts or grandmas sit and play with him while I got stuff done in the house. I have definitely had to be carried by the Lord this month as it has presented the most challenging mommy moments yet. Praying for patience is both necessary and terrifying. Every time I pray for more I get inundated with situations that require LOTS of patience, like a baby screaming, a kitchen full of boxes and the many other pulls of life in ministry. 

I have really tried to do more than survive these weeks. I have very high expectations and hopes as a mom. I want my children to think of me as a patient and gentle mommy. I want them to see Christ in me. I want to be an example of joy and patience and gentleness and love. I can’t believe how much that has already been tried with a little 4 month old, and I can’t imagine how much more when that little cute mouth starts speaking. I pray for Caleb so often, and pray that I can be the best mommy to him that I can possibly be. I know I won’t be perfect, but I pray the Lord will work everything out even through my imperfections. 

I recently told my mom that if I could describe my childhood in 1 word it would be ‘Magical’. Really and truly my childhood was perfection, except it probably wasn’t. I know my parents made mistakes and weren’t perfect. By God’s grace though, when I think of my childhood all I remember are the great and beautiful things. I pray that same thing for my children. That even though I will inevitably mess up, that He would cover that with His sweet grace and allow Caleb to see the good.  

I am so very honored to be called here to Moose Factory to serve. It really is a joy. I feel so honored to be Caleb’s mom too. Life can be hard, but I am grateful to be called to what I am called to as a mother and Pastor’s wife & I’m thankful for weeks like I’ve had that have just encouraged my faith as I’ve seen the Lord work mightily! He is a sweet and great Lord!

Now on to my little chunker:

Caleb Joshua :

Weight:  17 lbs

Height: 25.5 inches

Doctor appointment:  He gets his 4 month “needles” (that’s what they call them here…if you call them shots they’ll laugh at you..just fyi) in the next couple weeks!

Nicknames:  Chubs, Chubster, Chub-Chub, chubby, chunker ( poor baby…recurring theme!!! His thighs & FAT wrists just don’t help his case!!) baby boy, big boy, his mama calls him by his full name often…Caleb Joshua!

Eating: LOTS. I realized I should start reading up on the next stage with real food. I know he’s not ready yet, but I have noticed him being hungry a lot, so milk may not be cutting it for long! Also, mostly for my records (I’m printing these all out for my memory, or lack of!), I have something called D-MER…It’s Dysphoric Milk Ejection Reflux. There were so many times when I told Josh and my friend Brittany that I felt very depressed when I was nursing Caleb. It started happening so regularly (like every time I nurse) that Britt and I decided to google it…and what do you know…it’s a real thing, very real to me! Apparently it’s pretty rare, but when some women’s milk lets down their hormones go crazy (layman’s terms!) and feelings of depression, anxiety, hopelessness etc. flood hard for a couple minutes! It can be pretty intense, and make for one emotional mama. Since Caleb eats often, I experience it often, but we shall march on! I've been reading up on ways to possibly help it.

Sleeping:  Caleb is still a spectacular night sleeper. He usually goes to bed at 10 PM and wakes up around 8:30 -  9:00 AM!  He naps usually every 2 hours for about 30 minutes, except his 2nd nap of the day has been about an hour for the last few days! He’s becoming more and more comfortable in his crib, he’ll still cry and whine when we put him down, but it usually lasts no more than 10 minutes and then he’s out. I’d say that half the time he goes to sleep by himself, the other half nursing. I’m okay with this for now!

Diapers: Still in disposable...I thought I was almost out, then we hit the jackpot while packing up our house. Once we get settled I will start the washing the cloth diaper process. Thankfully my friend Britt did cloth diapers so I have someone to go to for any questions.

Clothing: He can wear some of his 3 month stuff. He is too tall and his feet are too big for sleepers in 3 month size (footy pajamas). I’ve been putting him in a lot of his 6 month stuff…it fits a little big, but is pretty good! He has such adorable clothes thanks to many of you reading this!

Social: Depends on the day. I’d say overall Caleb is a stage 5 mommy clinger. He loves his daddy too!  At first I was all “how cute and adorable” and now I’m all…”somebody take him!! Oh wait…you can’t!!”  I’m half joking…I still do find it quite endearing that he loves me so much. I know that nursing creates a very special bond between mommy and baby that often causes the babies to want to be near their mama's all the time. It’s also a different situation living in Moose Factory because there just aren’t many places to go. We went to dinner at a friend’s house on Saturday and it was a new place for Caleb. He already felt uncomfortable being in a new place, and when the woman tried to hold him he cried. He does really well at church, so I’m confident in time he’ll do better and better. Again, I’m ok with this. I’m not really worried about much. He’s loved and provided for. I trust that God will have Caleb grow up into the man that He wants him to be! Why worry?!?! Hakuna Matata!!

New this month:  Holy moly!! He has grown leaps and bounds this month! Caleb turns over from his back to his belly like a pro. If I put him down on his back within 5 seconds he’s over on his belly! I put him in his Jolly Jumper and he LOVES it. He goes nuts!! It’s such a joy to watch him be so joyful! He’s gone in his exersaucer the past few days. He laughs & scrunches up when I tickle his neck. It’s adorable!! He grabs things. He has found his hands and feet. Sometimes he’ll just hold his hands over his head and stare at them! It’s hilarious. Most recently he has bent over and sucked on his feet!!! He’s so flexible! It is hilarious to watch! This month was his first time in his crib and that’s going pretty well! It was an adjustment but I think he’s learning that he’s safe! I have been putting him in my carrier a lot lately and that has gone pretty well. He mostly just likes to face forward and see everything that I’m doing.  He has 2 teeth poking through on the bottom. That has been painful for my poor baby.

Likes:  Still likes his bath! LOVES his Jolly Jumper.  Being active 99% of the time! (Can you say exhausting for mom?!?!) Smiles so big when people give him attention and talk to him. LOVES being held and walking around the house with me or Josh. He likes when we change his clothes, both putting them on and taking them off… he just smiles so big and gets so excited. I’m pretty pumped about this because I know many babies dislike being changed!

Dislikes: Not being near mom & dad.  Being still. Ha! Teething! <---me too, baby!

Mama: I’m good! The last couple of weeks have been tough. I’ve been exhausted from moving. I’ve been overwhelmed because it’s nearly impossible to get anything done with Caleb.  (I need my mommy and mommy-in law!!!)  The whole DMER thing nearly pushes me over the edge when I’m already feeling defeated. I have been CLINGING to Jesus the past couple of weeks. Josh has been good to let me have alone time with Jesus each day without Caleb. Yesterday was one of my hardest days, but after spending time in the Bible and talking with Jesus I felt worlds better. Can’t imagine being a mama without the Lord to lean on. It’s a tough gig, a very sanctifying one, but an incredible privilege.  I’ve been doing a Bible study called No Other gods by Kelly Minter and it’s been phenomenal. I’ve grown so much over the past couple months doing it and have been super challenged. I would definitely recommend it! I’m still happy, still full of joy, still in love with my baby and his daddy! I have been so grateful being in this new home and seeing how the Lord has provided for us.

Daddy:  Joshua is great…exhausted, but great! This move has been tough with the Chubster. I have to be with Caleb so Josh has done A LOT of the moving part by himself, and I’m doing my best to do the sorting and organizing in the new house. He’s been moving, working and trying to spend time with us. He is putting on a conference this weekend at the Chapel called Biblical Mind Maintenance. There are 4 sessions, one for each chapter of Philippians! We are really looking forward to that! Hopefully Caleb is looking forward to napping during all the sessions so mommy can listen!!!

Fun things we did: Caleb went to his first wedding! He was precious! He was pretty bothered with teething that day, but we all still managed to have a good time! Being in a new house is fun! We are really praying the Lord will use us in our new neighborhood, living on the reserve now, about a 15 second walk from the chapel!
What we're looking forward to:  I’m looking forward to being settled in our home. Looking forward to Caleb’s passport coming in so we can plan a trip to Georgia & Philly. Looking forward to Christmas, hoping we have some visitors from the city of Brotherly Love…no pressure though ;)


 {his cool winter suit!! Thanks Mimi!!!}

 {he was mesmerized with the tigers on his feet!}
 {Caleb knows where the camera is because I can talk to him through it, we always catch him staring!}

 {I don't know why I look like an oompa loompa, but Caleb looks sweet!}


{i know I'm 100% biased, but this is the cutest video ever!}

“Give ear and come to me; hear me, that your soul may live. I will make an everlasting covenant with you, my faithful love promised to David.” Isaiah 55:3

Tuesday, 28 October 2014

3 months

Just as I suspected...I'm 9 days late on Caleb's monthly update! Whoopsie! October has been crazy busy for us! It's been a great month! I love being a mama! It is such a joy! There have been a few times this month when I was taken back and SO HAPPY to realize, Josh and I really know how to care for Caleb now. WHOAAA. Ha! We have really learned him in the past 3 months and now know his different cries, we know when he's tired or hungry or achey. We know when he's bored and just wants some attention. We know when he's in a silly mood or feeling off. It's pretty awesome and has made everything so enjoyable!

Caleb Joshua ::

Weight: 15.5

Height: 24 inches

Doctor appointment: No doctor apt at 3 months, however we did take him in and he was A Okay!

Nicknames: Changes every single day, and it’s always hilarious and relevant to life that day. I call him Cale-chub most of the time, and sweets!! Josh is still sticking with my boy and little bro (LOL). 

Eating: He has become a very efficient eater!! WOO! He eats for about 5 minutes on each side and is done! I’m so thankful we are past the 45 minutes a side stage!

Sleeping: This child is a phenomennalll night time sleeper. I am soooo grateful. He’ll sleep at least 8 hours…last night he slept around 12 hours! I am trying to get him to bed a little earlier than his normal 10:30-11 PM bedtime because we are just too tired for that. Last night he basically went to sleep around 7:30…he woke up and fed for a few minutes around 8:30, and that was it! That was AMAZING! He’s been doing good the last few days with his nap schedule. Usually will sleep for 30 minutes every hour and a half to 2 hours! A couple days ago he only napped once the WHOLE day…that was rough!! :/

Diapers: Since he’s finally getting into a good eating routine I was told he wouldn’t have a BM every day…and could go as long as 6 days without one! That has definitely been the case! We are still in disposable…Caleb’s Moose Factory Gookum (grandma in Cree) just brought us back a huge case of disposable diapers…so I figure when we are out of those, we will start cloth!

Clothing: He is in 3 months, but some of it is getting snug…we will have to move to 3-6 months very soon! Every brand is different too! I am really liking his little GAP sweat suits and feel like we are getting  a lot of wear out of those this cooler time of year!

Social: At home, with Josh and me, Caleb is super social and happy but he has definitely gotten a bit of stranger danger this month. I think the more he’s realizing who Josh and I are the more he wants to be safely with us. We had a bunch of people over last Friday to celebrate Josh’s birthday and nobody could hold Caleb or he would scream his head off. Nooooo. I’m not getting too worried about it, I think it’s just a phase. Since that night several people have held him and he would do okay sometimes and not so okay other times.

New this month: There has been about 3 different times where he laughed. It was AMAZING!!! The most perfect cute laugh ever! He does the motor boat with his lips all the time and spits out bubbles. I think he may be starting teething, he’s SUPER drooly and was “off” for about 5 days (the reason I took him to the doctor). They said he was fine, just most likely beginning teething! Yikes!  He has officially grown out of his bassinet…but poor baby has to stay in it for another week until we move to the new house and set up his crib.

Likes:  He still loves his bath and has started to kick like crazy in it! Playing with his family—he LOVES attention.  Josh says, “he likes going to sleep on his own terms!” ha! He likes sticking his hands in his mouth. He loves when I sing…one of his 3 laughs was when I was singing…I don’t know whether to be flattered or hurt! I’ve started just singing my sentences to him instead of talking 

Dislikes:  Sometimes he dislikes going in his bassinet for a nap, other times he’s okay with it. Being put down when he wants to be held by Josh or me. 

Mama: Doing good! The 5 days that Caleb was ‘off’ I was definitely off too! It broke my mama heart to see him upset and not his happy self. Teething is so gonna be my enemy! I feel like I’ve definitely gotten the hang of things, but still learning and growing every day.  Really excited to move into the new house sometime in the next couple weeks and REALLY excited to set up Caleb’s nursery! I feel like it’s been a little chaotic since Caleb was born because we didn’t want to take the time and FULLY organize life in this house just to pick up and move…so it’ll be nice to settle for good in that house! 

Daddy: Joshua is the bomb. Caleb loves his daddy. Just today Josh walked out and it was the first time Caleb saw him today…Caleb looked at him then shrieked with excitement! It melted our hearts…oh my goodness! Last night Josh spoke a message on Psalm 46. It was a beautiful message with an overwhelming response! He really felt the Lord put it on his heart, and He clearly did, because it really blessed and moved our congregation! Every time Josh comes out of his office to get coffee or whatever he always gets sucked in by Caleb’s cuteness and takes time to kiss him and pick him up. I love this. I think the fact that he is so consistent with loving his son like this will make such an impact.

Fun things we did: Caleb celebrated his first Canadian Thanksgiving! He looked super dapper and handsome in his bowtie shirt and khaki’s. Don’t you American’s worry…we will celebrate Thanksgiving at the end of November as well! We’ll be the only ones…but we still will! J We celebrated Josh’s birthday with a party at our house on the 17th!

What we're looking forward to:  We are looking forward to moving! Also, looking forward to teething being over (and it’s only just begun!!!). 

(can you tell he LOVES selfies with his mama?? ;-) )

 (Thanksgiving attire)

 (first time in the bumbo chair...he doesn't really like it...he tries to get out of it :) )

 (Caleb got dressed for his Aunt Erin's birthday!)

  (can't ALL be about Caleb... :) .... Josh celebrated his birthday, along with our friends Zach and mike!)


 (I should have probably waited until the 4 month update to show this...because technically he just learned this a few days ago...but it's just so cute i can't wait...he screams and shrieks in a high pitch squeal and talks now! soooo adorable!)


(Caleb's Moose Factory Auntie Debs bought him this chair and he loves it)

Monday, 22 September 2014

2 months

Hello dear friends and family! Wow, the past 2 months have been life changing! I’ve read so many blog posts over the last few years from new moms that would write “I have never been more tired than I am right now, but the last couple months have been amazing!” I absolutely never understood that. How can you put tired and amazing in the same sentence? I literally fear being tired, and that was one of my biggest fears going into motherhood. But here I am, 2 months in saying I’ve never been more tired in my life, but these last couple months have been amazing!!! 

Y’all…I can NOT describe the love I have for this little human. Holy smokes. There are still days when I look at him and just start crying…it’s truly overwhelming. He is such a JOY and such a gift and I will lose a zillion more hours of sleep for him. (and drink a zillion more cups of coffee!!!!!!!!!...or 1 a day…relax ppl! ;-))

 Because most moms are under the radar for the first couple months, getting the hang of things, I find that those hard times in the beginning aren’t talked about often. First off…labor…holy mackerel…intense!!! But most beautiful thing evverrrrrrr. But painful…and very painful for the weeks following…so physical pain, mixed with exhaustion, mixed with “am I everrrr gonna sleep again” depressing thoughts, mixed with LOVE & JOY & MORE LOVE…it’s all CRAZY!!! I’m thankful I had a lot of really honest mom friends that prepared me for the weeks after labor, because really, it’s a wild ride that warranted a LOT of prayer!!! Prayers that the Lord heard and honored!!!

So anyway, I hope to update once a month…but we’ll see! Right this minute I’m looking at a basket full of clean clothes, a pile of thank you cards that need to be written, and some dishes in the sink…we’re still getting the hang of everything, so hopefully this mama can find a few minutes to blog!

Caleb Joshua ::

Weight: 13.10 lbs 

Height: 24 inches

Doctor appointment: He has his 2 month immunizations in a few days! ( L someone holllddd meee)

Nicknames: I call him Little Love, Stinker Pot (is that like a thing or did I make up that weird one?), little man, baby boy. Josh calls him little bro (this cracks me up!!!), little fella, my boy. And of course he gets showered in sweetheart, precious, all those mushy gushy. 

Eating: He loves to eat!!! During the day he eats on average every 2.5 hours! It’s pretty crazy. He loves food from his mama, doesn’t quite love when his dad gives him a bottle of pumped milk, but this mom needs a break from time to time, so they get through! 

Sleeping: The day Caleb turned 7 weeks he started sleeping BEAUTIFULLY!!! I am BEYOND grateful!!! I feel like it was such a gift from the Lord as Josh and I were starting to be deliriously tired. Like I referred to Caleb as a girl MANY times…. HA! Now he goes to sleep around 10:30- will wake up once to eat, usually around 5:30 then goes back to sleep till around 9:30! It’s GLORIOUS!!! I’ve  pretty much figured out that every 2 hours he will take a 30-45 minute nap! Now that we’ve figured that out our days are going smoother! 

Diapers: He is still in disposable and will be until we move into our new house! I’m hoping after we settle we will have a bit more of a routine and it will be easier to work our way into the cloth diapers. Disposable is just soooo easy, but I can’t get past the cost savings of cloth, so I am excited to start (and do laundry every couple days…okay, I’m NOT excited for that part!!!).

Clothing: He is in 3 months. Just a couple days ago when I did his wash I had to put aside most of the 0-3 months clothing. 

Social: He’s my little social smiley boy! He LOOVVEESSS when Josh and I get right in front of him and talk…he just coo’s and “talks” away. He loves attention and gets soooo excited when Josh and I are together in front of him…he can barely handle the 2 of us together in front of him, it’s adorable!!! He does well with other people too…it isn’t hard to make him smile, so that’s always such a joy for people! He’s definitely grown in the last month socially…so that’s been REALLY fun to watch happen!

New this month: MUCH more talking…with some excited screams! (this is so adorable it about kills me). Nonstop smiling! Sleeping beautifully at night. More regular nap routine.  On the negative side…he’s had a bad rash for about a week, I took him in on day 2, and they thought he just has my bad/dry skin, they told me to just apply Vaseline and Lubriderm. Update: took him back after he had the rash 1 week…the doc said he needed .5 % hydrocortisone for what appears to be eczema…I just apply a little once a day and it has gotten WORLDS better! I loathe dry skin for myself so I am on top of his lotion game like crazy!!! My poor baby!! 

Likes:  Taking a bath, looking at himself in the mirror, hitting the objects hanging from his play mat, having his face/lips touched, music, Josh and me (WOOOO), being swaddled before nap time, morning time/ waking up from a nap time…he’s ALL smiles.

Dislikes: Being hungry & tired (samesies Cale!). 

Mama: I am so happy. I really really am. I of course have had some “hard” days…but it’s all relative. There have been so many things that I prayed for throughout my pregnancy that I’m seeing the Lord honor. Prayers for joy- I’m so joyful, I love being a mother. Prayers to soak up every day- I truly feel like I am enjoying each day and not letting the little hard things get me down too much. Prayers for my marriage- it has been so neat to see the Lord grow us and help us to figure out this whole parenthood/marriage thing…we still have/need a lot of growth, but we are definitely learning. We have finally been getting a schedule down the last week and that has been GLORIOUS. Caleb and I get up usually in the 9 O’clock hour (I’m hoping to start getting up an hour before him…I’m just. so. tired.) I get something to eat, then I feed him, he plays while I drink my coffee (one of the highlights of my day…ha!), I get a few things done that I need to get done…then after a while I flip him over and he does tummy time- I stay pretty close during this time…he needs encouragement during that hard workout! J then that wears him RIGHT out…and he falls asleep for a 30-45 minute nap! About every 2 hours he takes a 30-45 minute nap. He’s the bomb…so thankful we have a little schedule going!! (last night he slept from 10:45 PM-6:30 AM WOOOO)

Daddy: Joshua LOVES being a dad! He’s been back to work for a while, and that’s gone really well. Caleb and I give him his space during the day (until we move, his office will continue to be in our house), and Joshua just soaks up Caleb in the evenings and his days off. He’s soooo helpful. He does laundry, washes dishes, plays with Caleb, loves me well, he’s just such a natural! I am so blessed to have him as my partner in this life! 

Fun things we did: We did his newborn photo shoot with my friend and photographer, Julia. They are great!! Caleb peed 4 x during it (without a diaper on) and had an explosive # DOS…thankfully WITH a diaper on J , he’s met a lot of new people this month as friends came back in town from their Summer off, we went on some walks in the beautiful fresh air, the women from the Chapel had a baby shower for Caleb and me…it was so lovely!! We are very blessed to have so many people here in Moose Factory that love and support us!

What we're looking forward to: I’m looking forward to being in our new home…getting that decorated. VERY excited to decorate Caleb’s nursery!!! To purge some things and start fresh and simple! 


This sweetie chunked up a bit :) Definitely will not be wearing that onesie next month!!